girls

i hate girls. esp girls named nicole. this girl is such a fucking slut. it makes me so mad, when my bf and i broke up for a while she immediately tried to move in on him. she would talk to me and say things like "he is an ass" and then go behind my back and call him baby and stuff. so i havent talked to her in about 3 weeks, and today she IMs me and says whore :) and signs off. im so above that im tired of dealing with little girls that think that there tough and then when it comes down to it, they wont say anything to your face. ugh im not dealing with her nonsense anymore if she says one more thing to me thats it, i cant be "mature" about this anymore. she is driving me crazy, and i know she still wants my bf even tho she doesnt talk to him. HE IS MINE BITCH FUCK OFF. sorry i had to rant again. ill write again once ive calmed down. 

.weekend.

so its been a pretty good weekend. spending alot of time with the boyfriend. I've been really stressed that he is going to leave me. he tried to break up with me the other day because i caught him in a lie. it didnt make sense, but i was a mess. i hate when he puts me in situations like that, but when he does it makes me realize how much i really do appreciate him. i mean like im not trying to encourage to make him do it more, but we honestly have moments together when i am just laying in his arms and im like this is so right, no one knows me like he does besides my family and my best friend.  i love him so much, tomorrow is our 7 months. 

anyways school has started and its not cool. i have class tomorrow at 8:30 which means i am going to need to be up by 8. its horrible so i want to be in bed by 11. i hate mondays and wednesdays. actually i hate sunday and monday nights. b/c then i have to go to bed early. whatever im rambling. haha i need to start posting more. 

work

so I'm working as a receptionist at this restaurant in westchester. I must say that it is easier than my summer job as a lifeguard. but i work with mainly girls (high school girls) who all talk trash about you. even my boss. today they were complaining about how i smoke cigarettes at work during breaks. it really fucking pisses me off that they have the nerve to talk about me behind my back, but then when it comes down to it, they dont say anything to me. so why would i change my behavior? honestly. that makes absolutely NO sense to me. 

but anyways on a lighter note. tonight should be fun, getting drunk with my bf, and his friends ha. good times. 

world of warcraft.

let me just express for you  my hate for "WoW" its GAY. seriously my boyfriend for 5 months used to be addicted (as he says) to it. Now recently he has been starting to play again. There are a few reasons why it pisses me off. 1) he talks to random people on the internet that he was never met before 2) he spends at least three hours doing it 3) he will do something nice for me like this morning for example he brought me coffee in bed. I thought we could snuggle for a while and talk. blah blah. so anyways he gets a text from one of his "online friends" and immediatley leaves me to hop online and play. you dont understand how frustrated i am. 

I hate very few things

- WoW

- 3 words that i cant even type (no not i love you)

-spiders

-and im a picky eater

FUCK TODAY! I'm so angry. but i know that i have to keep my cool. but he is just rude to me when hes playing this shit. I think its cause he knows I'm right he knows that losers play this game, his friends even think so. Well time to go.